My Birthday is coming up this Thursday and I’m more anxious than anything. I never really had that feeling of true happiness on my birthday. What’s sad is, I don’t even remember one birthday where I didn’t cry. And I’m not even talking about tears of joy either. I know I shouldn’t allow what happened in the past traumatize me that much, but you have to understand sentimentally, I’ll forever carry that memory about that person who pretty much ignited the bad luck for the rest of my birthdays. Forgave but I will never forget how much each birthday memory wasn’t really a good one. For once I actually want to look forward to a birthday for a day just about no worries and celebration. I’m not trying to ask for your sympathy either. I’m just really hoping the best of times and maybe this birthday will finally change my perspective of this one special day. I just ask for good company and an amazing time with people I love, and that will surely put a smile on my face. You have no idea, how much it would mean to me.